Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Computer woes and addictions

Sometimes computers stink. I say this because I only know how to work on one, not how to fix one and mine is sick again for the second time this month - ugh!!! You don't realize how much you do depends on them working until you don't have one that works. It's like when your car is in the shop -you suddenly have a million errands to run that you didn't have the day before.

Addictions are hard. No matter what kind you have, it's a constant battle to overcome. I have a co-worker with a cigarette addiction - he is paying a steep price right now with his health because of this addiction. Hopefully, it's motivation to quit smoking, but if you've ever known or been someone with an addiction you know it's not as easy as just wanting to quit.

I've never struggled with drugs, alcohol, or smoking probably mainly because I never started any of those things. I had an uncle who had an alcohol addiction that killed him. I saw this play out in my middle school years and it had a profound impact on me and is one of the main reasons I never experimented with alcohol. But...my struggle is food. When I'm stressed or depressed or happy, that's where I turn. I don't like it, I wish I didn't, and I try hard not to, but it's a struggle for me. At times under better control than others. I used to think it was just an excuse when someone said alcoholics had a disease. I'm mean that's not fair to put it in the same category as cancer or some other uncontrollable thing. But...for that person, it is uncontrollable. I think having a support system and encouragement is so important when you are struggling. I know I did great last year on weight watchers when Lance was working on it with me. When he quit working, it was easy for me to slide. I need that accountability. I'm working on it.

5 comments:

QuiteContrary said...

I'm sorry you have this burden. Food is sometimes my closest friend too. I am still working on "losing the baby weight" even though my kids are 9 and 7!

Seriously, I hope you know that your friends love you for who you are no matter what struggles you face or what size you wear - that includes me! :o)

Jenn Greeley said...

Its a struggle for me too. I love to eat, so I try to balance it with getting some form of exercise in each day. "Try" being the operative word.

Becky said...

It is so hard for many of us! I turn to food for all of those reasons as well! I can lose and then, there it is again..the next time I need comfort or something like that! Boredom is a kicker for me! When I'm bored, I should be walking that treadmill in the other room!
I've lost motivation lately...

Ladybuggin' said...

I too struggle with weight gain and loss because I love to eat. I have to listen to the whispers of my family, "wow, she's gained alot of weight" and its true I have. I've gained 70 pounds since college, 50 of it since getting married. I set a goal to lose some and I did, 20 pounds before my sister's wedding 1 month ago, but guess what...I've gained 6 of them back. It is hard for me to stay motivated. It's alot easier when you have the support.

circus of love said...

I am right there with you, Girl. I just started weight watchers this last week. I am having to really think about how I turn to food rather than God. UGH!! I remember telling someone that struggled with drug addictions in the past that at least you could keep drugs out of your house/work/etc. where they weren't as readily accessible. But i mean...you CAN'T live without food. I will overeat anything if I let myself...even healthy stuff and still be over weight. I am striving to have a healthier view of food. So...all that to say.. I understand. God for some reason has allowed us to be where are with the issues we deal with in order to grow closer to Him. I am hoping one day I can look back and see how He walked me through this and praise Him for what He has taught me in it. It is all a process...one day at a time.